I feel really scared today
St. Louis is supposed to announce more details about opening the city around May 18, but I don’t feel safe enough to go back to work. I don’t feel like we have a plan, or resources to safely reopen. The shutdown bought us a lot of time, but it doesn’t feel like anything has been implemented in this time to make reopening a safe choice. All of it makes me dizzy. The construction workers at my job completely disregard distancing guidelines and walk right past us in the narrow hallways. I feel like exposure is inevitable.
Also, 3 people got shot on the corner of my street on Saturday night???? And they don’t have suspects??? Something about AirBnB guests that weren’t properly vetted???? We heard the shots. There were so many in succession that I thought it was firecrackers. It’s terrifying. My in-laws AirBnb’d in that building before…
We’re also supposed to move in June. How will we move? Do we hire people or drive ourselves? We have so much stuff, who’s even buying things right now? We’re moving into this huge building, so it sounds like it’ll be harder to avoid people. I won’t have a job right away, I assume, so what if I can’t find a job at all and eventually we can’t afford the apartment? And when I do, how will I find a dog walker that Rosie will like? What if she can’t see us leave out the window? What if she barks and people complain?
And don’t even get me started on worries about Noah working in the hospital.
My translating was going well until now; the raw source I have for the current episode is missing audio for half the episode. Recently, there have been a few silent spots, but no one was talking anyway. I spent all trying to capture a different, lower quality source, and now, I’m trying to figure out how to replace portions of the old audio and combine it with the better quality video.
Everything feels bad today :(